Susan Ranting about stuff

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Many people believe a College Degree gets you far – and I totally agree with that, if you were planning to become a Doctor, a Lawyer, or what not. However I do believe there are some jobs in which you don’t need a college degree.

Writers, artist, dancers, singers and so on

Yes, college, does help ones perfect in the areas they wish to study.

Though here where my situation comes in, how am I different?

I’ve always struggled with school. I never was the super smart gal who had all A’s, I was lucky to have only one F or one D on my report card. I wasn’t stupid, but I was (and still am) lazy when it comes to doing home work and procrastinate with projects. I do not do well in large schools. My school has on average 5,000 students (probably more then that) I feel over crowded, I feel as though going to school – I’m not gaining anything. it feels like I’m wasting my time.

Back when I was planning to get my Diploma and going to college I looked up famous writers to see what kind of college they went too (because I wasn’t sure if there was a writing college) and guess what? None of them went to college for a writing degree. One of them never even went to college (He went into the army) Perhaps they took a few writing courses, but they didn’t start college with writing in mind.

I, however, have been writing my whole life. Ever since I was a little girl, I remember taking sheets of paper and writing stories and they were like pages and pages long. Back then writing and reading was just a hobby and it wasn’t until sixth grade did I realize what I wanted to be most in the world – was a author. That was 5 years ago, so I highly doubt I’m going to change my mind.

Plan B? There is none. I think it is stupid going into something believing there is a part of you that will fail, then what’s the point in even trying? It’s not I MAY become a writer it is I AM.

I’m not stupid. I know the world is hard. I know that it may be a few years for me to take off. My first novel may not be a hit, but I will never give up. I will keep trying. Because it is my dream.

So a GED and a Diploma is the same thing. Of course Diploma looks better on your College Papers to get into a good college (if I was going to college I would be going to an online writing college called Pennfoster))

So do I really need to go to college? I honestly don’t know. I wish someone would give me a straight answer. I mean most people don’t understand. I wish I could just talk to a professional writer I believe they would understand.

I mean I’m not a perfect writer, but I have some awesome and unique ideas and if I work hard I know I can write a pretty good book ^^ and I mean there is something as called EDITORS to help with grammar and spelling (and I’ve read plenty of books who had mistakes in them, so it’s not like you have to be perfect )

I also found a self publishing website called Lulu.com and it seems pretty real. (although I’m planning to look more into it) that could help me get a book off and get some publicity as well as some money.

I also found some publishers.

I’m already looking into this. I know what I’m getting into it. I’ve been thinking about it and praying a lot for the last couple of days. I do believe this is the right decision. But because everyone is being so down about it, I’m beginning to doubt myself. That is why I’m writing this huge rant that has nothing to do with wolves (though it has to do with writing so eh) it’s hard to explain everything on a c-box.

So let’s say I do get my Diploma (that’ll take a year or two.) then I go to college (another year or so) that’s like a few years out of my life when I can spend reading. I mean I know I can work in-between and stuff, but with all the work and homework, I won’t have as much time. I feel like it’s a waist of my time.

Blah. I don’t know what else to write. Everyone is different. I believe that sometimes School is not right for a person. Most people need school and some don’t…and I strongly believe that I don’t.

And I will work for my GED. I know it will be hard. Like I said before, I’m not naïve. I know it will be, however I do want it. I do want some kind of degree and I believe that getting a GED is not a waist of time like finishing off High School.

I mean you CAN get into college with a GED (I mean it’s not like im going to Stanford or anything)

So yeah, I know it’s a long rant, but I had a lot of stuff to take off my chest so now I don’t feel as upset as before so thanks for reading

(( actually writing all this down just makes me want to pursue my GED even more)

But you know what? Part of me is afraid. Part of me is afraid of failing. I believe this is coming because everyone is being so down with me (even if they're not trying to be mean) it feels like they're stomping on me and forcing me to go a way in which I'm not sure is the right path.

perhaps I'm also afraid to grow up. To face in the world. I mean I'm almost 18

and another part of me is exicted. Ready to face the world. Ready to show everyone who ever doubted me and prove them wrong. Prove to them that I will shine.

So yeah =/